twinkie’s blog

I did my first sketch in mr. sketchbook, and this one was something useful, life drawing. I drew the boy curled up in his blanket playing videogames. I think I'm going to ween myself off of deviantart and move over to the much more original and talent people at conceptartist.org. You're surrounded by less "wanna be anime artists" and more people who do actual life drawing, use perspective, and actually use their own style. It makes everything look so unique, and many of the people are so talented...it just makes me...happy. That and the fact that my boyfriends ex seems to have found my deviantart page address, this is what I get for commenting on peoples work before I read their names.... This is also what I get for clicking a random link off of Austin's abadoned deviantart page. =/  It's akward and makes me tempted to tell her off about how she treated Austin, and I just want to distance myself from it.

So Austin's going to apply to two EA jobs I've found on their website. I really hope he gets something soon....

I finally went downtown with Austin again! We ran around looking at cell phones and cell phone plans, ran into a an extremely pushy saleswoman, whom Austin snubbed for being so ridiculously annoying. We took the bus to the The Plastor of Orleans (sp?), which is a mall on the other side of Ottawa. I didn't take my car thinking it would be ridiculously busy being so close to X-mas and all...but it was really dead. =/ I liked that mall much better, it's less hectic than the Rideau Center...which is 5 confusing floors of shopping....Anyway, next time we'll make the trip in my car, since it seems pretty straight forward.

I'm really tired...and about to use my new sketchbook, so later..

So there have been no incidents with me feeling faint in the last day, I think I'm good. That pain in my chest area was more than likely a cramp from having my arms propped on the steering wheel for 6 hours. My mother scolded me for not stopping more to get out and walk around for a bit. It's true, I've been overduing it for a year and a half on those rides....it's a wonder I didn't overload myself sooner.

....The sound of Austin trying to remove a stubborn pop bottle lid in the background amuses me for some reason....:)

Yeseterday, I got most of my mp3 rotation up, minus some really bad wording errors I need to correct later. =/ (I typed like I was drunk or something.)

I'm back from PA the trip went ok, but I'm somewhat sore from sitting and driving for 6 hours. I think I really overdid it this time though....
I came back and ran into Austin as he was leaving for work, I wanted to talk to him, hug and kiss and drove him to work. I came back in as normal after, and went to take a nice warm bath to relax. I read some of "Angels and Demons" (
I read it slowly when it's my relax time.). I got up and put that on the side of the sink and went back into the tub to wash, up. When I sat down I started to feel really weird. The top part of my chest area felt like it was cramping up, I started to feel really faint and my attempts at really deep breathes were not helping. I didn't like how I was feeling so I hurried out of the tub (I figured if anything was going to happen I wasn't going to end up drowning in a bath tub. =/) , I started stumbling out of the bathroom and ended up collapsing on my living room floor. I remember it got really really fuzzy then, I was scared and tried to reach the phone on my desk a few feet away, but I couldn't muster the strength to grab it. The last thing I remember was rolling around on my chest and trying to will myself to stay concious.....It didn't work.

I don't know how long I was passed out, probably 15 minutes or so. I woke up just staring at first, as if I had been napping, but then I realized I was laying on my living room floor and remembered what happened. I jumped up and in a dizzy panic I started crying and trying to call Austin at work. I was using the wrong damn number and after searching through e-mails and such for 10 minutes I found the real number to where he's at in his building. I just kept sobbing, told him I passed out and just told him to come home. Unfortunately, the bus ride home is about an hour and I obviously couldn't go to get him. Once I knew that he was on his way home, I tried to calm down and called my mother. After telling her what happened, she asked me some questions.

You didn't eat anything today did you..? Me: "No..."
Are you having your period? Me:  "Yes..."
Did you have any water to drink at all in the course of the day.. Me:" No...just some soda for a driving drink"
Did you rest at ALL on the way...? Me: "No, I only stopped once for gas.
Was the water really hot?  Me:"Yes..."

Her reply is  "No wonder you passed out..." .  I know it's a somewhat normal thing for females once in awhile. And considering since I hadn't eaten food since 6pm last night (this happened at 4:30pm ) ......I really should have known better. This has happened once before when I was in 7th grade, at that time I was playing flute in the band and ended up collapsing and falling down  5 or 6 rows of bleachers....=/ It's been so long since it's happened I really didn't take any of that into consideration.

Anyway, when Austin got here, he came over and checked on me, made me dinner and we cuddled and watched a few episodes of "Clone High" . I feel a bit better, but  I'm still really paranoid....I don't want it to happen again. I also hope it can all just be chalked up to "My female friend"....I really don't feel like spending more time in an emergency room. Just to be safe, and since I'm due for a checkup anyway, I had my mother book me for an appointment when I come back to town with Austin...a few days before X-mas. Then I can find out if something more serious is wrong. (...or I will find out if/when something serious happens and I have to go to the emergency room....again....ugh).

Anyway, that's it for now. Relax time.

silkeroadeonline.net

I started playing that the other morning. It's too bad it's so packed there you can't do anything, since it's free, it's hard to even find a monster, let alone kill it. I'll take some screens when I get around to playing it again. (FFXI has consumed my online play time as of now :)
The character artwork is amazing!

I really can't wait to get married. :) The topics been coming up a lot, so it keeps me thinking. hehe.

Unfortunately, I didn't get too much work done today. Most of my day was spent running around doing laundry and playing FFXI. I had to level to 20 and run all over the place gathering materials for my sub job quest. It took a LONG time, but was not as aggrevating as WoW and I actually found myself enjoying everything, instead of being pissy and whining about having to run everywhere. I also "helped" my friend gather the last 58 necklaces he needed for a fame quest for Norg. (I believe that was country he said.) He's level 75 so it's not really like I helped him much. I also got help from his boyfriend who ran me all over the place getting dem crystals. I'll be harassing him when I go home on Tuesday with more questions about terms and gameplay. Yay, geek talk!

Oh yeah, like I said, I'll be heading to PA on Tuesday, alone, without my boy to go with me. He has work and can't get the days off. *cries* I would postpone it but I have some things to attend to this week. It's going to be so boring. 6 hours there and 6 hours back. More than likely I will stay overnight, unless I'm feeling extremely bored/psychotic and drive back at night. I wont be able to sleep without my boy, I'm so sad.... He'll probably be here playing videogames and running around like a loon while I'm gone. =/

I just hope the car problem I've been having has been fixed. I'm unsure of this so I'm taking it back in tomorrow and making them check the brakes. This burning smell that was there before they were repaired is still there...doesn't smell as pungent as it did, but it's still there and I want to make sure something wasn't done right. The last thing I want is to be stranded in PA with my family.

I've been looking for an excuse to use this journal, and I found it. I would prefer if people didn't read my livejournal entries unless they're on my friends list.

Anyway, my new addictions are now Final Fantasy XI online and I'm back on my webdesigning bindge, like I had previously had before I started dating the boy. Not that it was a bad thing, I felt I needed a break anyway. So yeah, I'm back and don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon.

My latest project is going well, I'm probably....about...say 25% done with the site. A layout and a name haven't been decided though. I'm working on them :)  I've written up tons of html tutorials and done a few layouts so far. I've got a large chunk of stuff done and I'm proud of it! This is the most I've worked on a project like this since I ran proto-merkabah.net.

Now, it's late. Austin is finishing up his Suikoden and I'm pleased at my progress in web stuff AND FFXI. I'm about to hit level 20, which means sub jobs! Woot! Also, CHOCOBO'S! I'm sure they're expensive to rent but it will be nice not having to run all over the creation on foot again. I need to grab myself the new expansion so I can eventually breed my own. They're adorable!!!! :)

Bed time now.

Today I painted with the good old tablet in photoshop. I figured out how to paint a nose without using lines. (all shading.) I'm quite happy about that.

Also found some gaming companies that Austin will be applying to. *crosses fingers* Theres a particular one in California that seems really promising. (seems like they are just getting started but they have healthcare and 401k, so they are serious.)

I hope I can get Austin to do a Kung Fu form for me tonight. (they are really long) I like watching them, even if he thinks he sucks at them.

Tomorrow will be wesbite work day!

Someday, I will get into the habit of using this. Heck, I hardly post on Livejournal anymore...

I'm almost done with the website Austins mother hired me to design.

thesidewalkartist.com

Was the most work I've put into a website commission so far. I'm quite proud of the layout graphic. ^^

One thing I really miss about Pennsylvania is the scenery.

I miss my mountains.....

It's so flat in Canada....makes me a bit depressed.

But, but, but!  Valkyrie Profile : Silmeria   will be out in the states in September! (If it's delayed here, I will head right home to snatch that puppy up). I'm soooo happy they are continuing the series!!!  *loves*  So far, all I know is that it's about Silmeria, the youngest Valkyrie. The story takes place hundreds of years before Valkyrie Profile : Lenneth. It tells the story of how Silmeria angered Odin, and to punish her, he reincarnated her into  Alica, this princess, but she still memories of being Silmeria...which the gods have overlooked.

Oh god, I love the character designs. I hope to be able to color using mr.computer like that someday.....

So far, I have the following games to complete:
-Xenosaga Episode II : Jensits von gut un boise (spelling might be off lol)
-Magna Carta : Tears of Blood (Austin got me this a b-day present...very hard to find a copy)
- Kingdom Hearts
- Grandia II (but I dont really have an interest in finishing it)